I stayed home for the day and slept till 1 pm. As well as a good night’s sleep. Then Lyndell from Tweed came and took me to the NA Meeting and it worked very well for me. The difference remains between me and my loved one and I don’t quite know what to do about it.
Now I have Red Leg. It has come up suddenly and I feel a little nauseous. Probably would be wiser to go to hospital – but I am not. I haven’t even been out of there for one month as yet.
I now have the simply sepsis facebook page which is one of my current favourites and matches almost everything that happens to me. MAYBE I HAD BEST sleep now and see the hospital in the morning.
I Remember way back catching an episode of JAG which was just coming out and I felt a thrill of shock. My God I thought. They are preparing us for war and all that a militaristic era involves – blind obedience, sacrifice of our children, major propaganda and human rights abuse. Sure enough – within a short time most American TV followed similar lines. Pointless, fruitless barbarism.
What on earth did everyone think would happen ? What possible decent outcome could there be from times like that ?
Once we watched family sitcoms and simple dramas. Hello Rockford. I liked you very well.
It reminds me of 1990 when the American psych at Langton was going home to take with him the advanced way in which we handled Alcoholism. His name was Ryan and he said :
” I fear that you ( Australia) are about to follow us ( U.S.A.) down the path into darkness and it will take at least 30 years to find your way back out. “
That’s what I see in the bigger world at the moment. Following others down the paths into darkness.
As for me – I seem to have taken a wrong turn somewhere within my family life and am walking down a path into further darkness. Ah well – I have been in many dark places. Yesterday I saw on the other side of the bridge at Gleniffer – the dark and mysterious world I first loved when I came here. There it was. Lord of the Rings Country.
No more money to anyone.
No more giving my possessions to anyone – unless I can do that without expectation or a price tag.
No more money.
No more asking for even the smallest of favours.
LISE IS planting plants out and the day is clouded and cool. I am going soon to the NA Meeting.
“That you seemed disillusioned with me personally may be a new and painful experience for you but many members have had that experience with me. Most of their pain has been caused not only by my several shortcomings but by their own insistence on placing me, a drunk, trying to get along with other folks, upon a completely illusory pedestal; a station which no fallible person could possibly occupy. I’m sure that you will understand that I have never held myself out to anybody as either a saint or a superman. I have repeatedly and truthfully said that A.A. is full of people who have made more spiritual progress than I ever, or can make. That in some areas of living I have made some decided gains but in others I seem to have stood still. And in still other ways I may have gone backwards. I am sorry that you are disillusioned with me but I am happy that even I have found a life here.
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