Pain in my right side and isolated once more. This is not my ideal life at this time.
No matter. One day at a time. Just this one day. POTTER ON. Potter on in this half life and BE PATIENT.
Eden has called on Facetime and we will spend the evening together. It helps A LOT. I HAVE THE AIR CONDITIONER ON AGAIN. Cause I have been hot.
This morning the little one put a lego up her nose till it bled.
That’s about as exciting as the day got.
I am afraid because my side hurts rather a lot.
I am afraid because this has been a shot longtime and awaiting me is the death threat of age and Hep C.
I am afraid because I have had enough and I am lonesome.
I am afraid because I don’t get enough meetings or even shops and people and things to do.
I am Victim of the Corrosive Thread of Fear.
I have been happy before and I will be happy again. Just maybe not tonight. Maybe not here.